It's Friday - yes I have a gift for stating the obvious. The Buckeyes won easily last night which always puts a smile on my face. Now if only I could get a few minutes of free time to watch them win! Here's what my week nights look like:

1. Pick kids up after work.
2. Homework and go through school paperwork.
3. nurse baby.
4. make dinner.
5. clean up while the kids have their media time.
6. showers.
7. put baby to bed.
8. read with and put older kids to bed.
9. make lunches and breakfasts and bottles for the next day and clean all that up.
10. pump.
11. fold laundry or other housework that must be done for the next day.
12. get my clothes out for the next day.
13. collapse into bed while I listen to my DH complain how we aren't intimate anymore.
14. pump one more time before I fade off into unconsciousness.
15. 2 am - pump so my supply doesn't dwindle now that I'm back at work.

Oh and this schedule doesn't include the night we have karate or gymnastics. Then things really get hairy.

Intimate????? I wish!!!! Where do I schedule that - in between the kids showers? Or in between the PB&J sandwich and the ham sandwich? By the time I'm done with my nightly checklist it's after 10 or 10:30. Then I get up at 5:45.

I know my darling feels a bit neglected at times but cut me some slack! I don't even have time to work out. Hence the reason I'm still overweight and don't even feel sexy let alone try to act sexy. I eat the crap the kids don't finish and when I do get some time for myself I veg because I need to stop moving at some point.

Even the poor dog looks longingly at me waiting for her five minutes of stroke time.

Don't get me wrong. I love my family but sometimes I just wish I could have a little time - extra time - to take things more slowly. I admit I have small family envy at times for those with 2 kids or less. Most times I'm glad we have a big family because I love them all so dearly. I guess what I'm really envious of is those moms who can stay home.

But the rat race is my home. Sometimes I just can't find my cheese.